Rosie was our rainbow baby after 2 previous miscarriages. One at 8.5 weeks and one after a chemical where my test lines gradually got lighter. It was very scary during the whole pregnancy because of my previous negative experiences - I was terrified something would go wrong.
I tested each day in the hopes that my lines would get darker to try and reassure myself. Luckily they did.
My husband and I shared the news early on to close family as we wanted their support should anything go wrong. They were amazingly supportive and helped me so much get through the early days.
I had scans very early from about 6/7 weeks due to my history of back to back loss. We were lucky enough to see Rosie's heart beat likely within days of it starting for the first time at 7 weeks. Every 2 weeks my EPU carried out a scan to check for progress and it was amazing seeing this tiny blob slowly form into a baby!
After I was about 12 weeks I no longer came under the EPU. Rosie then started a pattern of behavior where she would not cooperate at all in the womb for sonographers. We were unable to get measurements for the combined test despite going back twice - so I had to wait for a quad blood test. This only gives results for T21 rather than other abnormalities. This again was terrifying - I was so worried something may be wrong and we have missed it.
For my 20 week anomaly scan Rosie continued to be difficult! She did not allow the sonographer to see her face and palate. Therefore, I needed another scan 2 weeks later purely to look at her lips and palate. They felt that scan indicated she was clear of any cleft abnormalities.
Her cleft palate and recessed chin were never picked up via scans but at the time I had a scan photo where I noticed the chin looked small. I had a google and reassured myself it was maybe the angle Rosie had her head turned, but in hindsight this should have been seen as an indicator for micrognathia/PRS. The fact that I had a second anomaly scan purely to look for cleft lip and palate and it was seen as clear made the whole birth experience and learning about Rosie's condition even more shocking and difficult to come to terms with.
I didn't take many belly photos - I was scared of jinxing things. But here are a few of my growing bump. Including me at my wedding to my husband. My wedding was at 8.5 months pregnant and little did we know Rosie would make her appearance less than 5 weeks after.
We loved preparing for Rosie in our home. We created such a lovely space for her and we were super excited to welcome her and bring her home. This did make it hard when she was in hospital for a month - seeing things which she should be using and her crib empty was hard.
Unfortunately Yuumi passed away due to a road traffic accident. It was one of the most devastating things.
We got her a beautiful Urn and my father-in-law sent me a lovely canvas of my favorite photo t of her. We will tell Rosie all about her guardian angel cat who looked after her mummy when she most needed it.
Yuumi also lead us to our new kitten who we added to our family shortly after. I needed a friend and so did our other cat who loved Yuumi as much as we did. Lumen (the ragdoll) actually used the same cat tree that Yuumi enjoyed. We sold it to create space in the nursey a few weeks prior and the breeder of Lumen was the one who had bought it. We had no idea prior to visiting the kittens but we felt it was a sign. A few month on with Lumen in our lives I can really say it was one of the best choices we ever made and I like to think Yuumi lead us to him.
No comments:
Post a Comment